Today is my 29th birthday. My dear husband (DH) woke me up this morning with about 8 Happy Birthday's, a bunch of kisses and a whole lot of hugs before he left for work. My mom called me. My stepdad (SD) called me bright and early. My grandparents called. ***They all live in a different state than I do.*** My two best friends called. My kids all told me happy birthday. I got a couple of birthday ecards, numerous texts and a bunch of fb posts. DH got me a cake and a pink rose with a FABULOUS card and the kids got me a funny card with a pot of flowers. Overall it was a pretty good birthday. So that was my "happy" part, why should I be sad?
Well, it is now 10:15 pm where my "dad" lives and I haven't heard from him. This is why I am such a strong believer in father's rights. I have an amazing husband who sacrifices so much to make sure his family is cared for and loved, would do anything for his children and has tried to be in his daughters life for 14 years but has been shut out, denied and make to feel like a crappy father when he is anything but.
My "dad", on the other hand, couldn't even take 5 seconds out of his day to send me a text. Don't get me wrong, I am extremely thankful for the people I have in my life. I know that there is nothing I can do to change my "dad" but I can't help but be hopeful that one day he will realize what an awesomely great daughter he has in me. Maybe that day will never come. Maybe it will be tomorrow. I don't know. All I do know is that sitting here writing this with tears streaming down my face, I wish all dads would be like my husband. Wanting to be a part of their child's lives. Remembering birthdays, holidays and special occasions. All I want for my birthday is to know I'm loved by the one and only father that I will ever have, to know that I am on his mind and for him to realize that even at the age of 29, it still hurts that he doesn't want to be a part of my life. I wish moms would look at the grown women of today, that didn't have their fathers in their lives, and realize the pain and hurt that they have. Girls need their fathers, they need their love, support, advice and attention. This is simply my point of view, being a girl, daughter, wife and mother.
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